i cant deny i dont want the beauty

.Sunday, July 29, 2007 ' 10:30 AM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

YAY!! COMPLETED 5KM WALKATON ! WEEEE~~
Woke up at 6.05am to prepare to go out to padang for the walkaton. ((: Met Aunt LQ, Aunt Joy, Elicia + Aunt LQ's cheerleaders then we proceed to padang. The grass was super super muddy! Met Natasha, Adrina and HM ah-ma at sector A.. Supposed to be at sector C but Aunt LQ they all walked to sector A.. I'm sorry Audris.... Make u go sector C when u standing at sector A.. But Cousin Xjun they all managed to find u so its good. Heh. They are always late.... LOL ! =x

Walked, walked and walked. When i was at esplanade already, Audris still at padang ! Haiix.. So did not get to meet up. Ohwells. Nevermind. Next year we walked together ! Heh ((: Walked with Elicia through out the walk as HM ah-ma and Aunt Joy were walking non-stop as we stopped to play some games. I think Elicia noticed that i look sian. Hahha. I'm sorry girl. ((: I was just thinking that how good will that be if Melmummy would be with me at that time.. Ohwells. It's over.

At the end of the walk, HM ah-ma, Aunt Joy, Elicia and me proceeded to Raffles City for lunch at the food court. Aunt Joy and me were super super hungry !!! Heh. Ate then walked around to wait for Aunt LQ, Cousin XJun and the rest.. Went to precious thoughts.. The toys there were so cute !!! I want !! Especially the tortise and the snail.. Hehh. Went to the Harvey Norman shop which is a few shops away. Took a look at the lappys there. I want one !!! Haiix. Went in to look at cameras and Aunt LQ came to find us. Next was River Island shop. Oh my. The clothes there are freaking expensive! Even there is a half price sale ??!?!? So you can imagine how expensive the clothes in that shop. Cousin Xjun and the rest were at food court.. But i did not go and find them cause i needed to go home to bathe and get ready to go out again.

Walked to mrt station with HM ah-ma, Aunt LQ and Aunt Joy. Took train to NEL line to go home as it was raining.. ))= Told Aunt LQ that one of her cheerleaders were my senior. LOL. She was surprised. Hahha. ((: Took train to Potong Pasir and home while they took train down to chinatown to do foot reflexlogy. (wrong spelling i guess)

Went home, slacked a while till 2.30pm and went to bathe to get ready to go out to marina square to find Melmummmy and Nigeldaddy to go for NDP Preview. Went to meet Melmummy outside Mac.. Guess who i saw !! MS XJ and HER BOYFRIEND !!! Hahahh. She was surprised to see me there !!! MUHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!! She got caught by me ! LOL =x

Went to line up for bags checking and then walked to stadium to get goody bags and into the stadium. Melmummy was kinda high! LOL. Like a kid. Hah. I just sit down there like a quiet and guai girl and watched everything. Heh. A bit sian at the starting till after the parade's over. LOL. Performance was not bad. I captured a lot of photos and videos of fireworks and the Red Lions ! Hahha. Fireworks were the nicest of all !!! After that went to suntec to eat BK and home.

1st NDP watching with Melmummy and Nigeldaddy. ((:

.Tuesday, July 24, 2007 ' 8:24 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Today was quite okay. PE was great fun again ! Sad that Mr Tan did not came to school for PE and a relief teacher came into class. But most of us went down to play netball with Ms Chan. ((: Good job to my team and another team too ! Heez. After that we had english compo test. It's my longest compo ever i guess. Haha. After recess was geog test. Kind of proud of myself. I actually did studied for the test !!! Hahah. The test was quite okay. Heh. It was math lesson after geography. When mr rahmat gave us work to do, me, cindy, jiaqi and marcus were talking behind and not doing work. oppz. =x at least i did one question lah. HAHA ! Had physics stars today. Did practical. Not bad. Went home and watched tv and sleep. HEES.

Tralala~ Another day tomorrow...

.Saturday, July 21, 2007 ' 3:21 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Yesterday school functioned till 9.35am. Went kallang mac to have breakfast with kokshen, jiaqi and poh leong. After that, they went back to school and me and poh leong went to play pool above parkway mac. Played from 12pm till around 3 and i left first. Poh leong continued playing till don't know what time. Saw fiona and yinghui outside mac. Hahha. Went to parkway to change back to school uniform and bought iced peach tea from mos and headed back to school for SOO. SOO was alright. Haha. YAY ! MS TAN WAS BACK! WHEEEEE~ Took a few pictures of yesterday. ((: After that went to parkway to meet angie for dinner. All the female teachers were so pretty yesterday ! Haha. Nan de you know. Especially Ms Chan. Heh. But they are pretty everyday lah. Only yesterday extremely pretty. (((:

Had math tuition just now.. Showed teacher a bit attitude. Siann. What's wrong with me !!!! Went to rebond my hair again just now. Was at the saloon for solid 4 hours and 20mins. Hahah. Tralalala~~

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Me, Ms Tan, Sihui

Teeli and me. Tired lia0s.~

Me with stephanie~

Me with shaoping mummy!(:

Me with kokshen aka boyfriend aka laogong. KIDDING(:

I wonder why people say he's my boyfriend... Saw yinghan at parkway, she asked whether he's my boyfriend not. Saw calista and her juniors at parkway, her juniors asked whether i'm his girlfriend not. What the... Do i look like as if i'm his girlfriend. Funny lah. LOL. He is just one of my closest guy friend lah. LOL

.Thursday, July 19, 2007 ' 7:09 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

School was boring today, especially mother tongue lesson. While wang lao shi was explaining, i fell asleep. Hahhaha. Tralalal~ While doing english summary, kokshen called me on my phone and wanted me to pei him go parkway buy some sweets for tomorrow and some stuff for home. Went to mos burger and buy iced milk tea. Thanks kok shen for the treat ! mUAHHAHAHhahha. Went into watson as kokshen finding his stuff. On the way to giant, i saw MS CHEE YINGHAN. SUPER LONG NEVER SEE HER ALREADY LAH ! Hahahha. Wished her advance happy birthday. At giant, kokshen bought a lot of stuff ! Hahahah. The whole trolley is like full lah. Saw cal laopo and her juniors. After that went home. ((:

Tomorrow SOO.. Hahha. school will be ending at 9.35am.. After that breakfast at kallang mac with kokshen, shaoping mummy and panda. ((: Going back to school at 4pm for SOO as student audience.. Tralallalalala~

.Tuesday, July 17, 2007 ' 6:11 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Lessons as usual. Boring. First two periods was PE. Now PE is my fave periods for the whole entire 5 days schedule ! All lessons are getting boring.

Ms Chan let us ran round the netball court for 8 rounds. Muahahhaa. I think i complete 7 only then Mr Tan asked us to stop and go to the back next to the toilet there and gather. Rest a while then do step up for 1 and a 1/2 min for 3 sets. Means total is 4 1/2 mins doing step ups. Then the guys + Mr Tan do 50 push ups. We girls follow Ms Chan. ((: 50 squats + 5 push ups. Next was netball. It was so so fun lah ! Hahahah. Ms Chan played with us. In the middle of the game, Mr Tan joined us. Hahah. Was so funny. Teacher vs teacher. Too bad, din't video it down. Hahaha. Thank God for holding the rain to let us play ! It rained a while, slight rain after we finished playing.

Next was Mdm Lim's periods straight right up to recess. Mark compo for each other and do 2nd draft. Sian. Geography was after recess. It suck even more. Did finish my frame work and hand in. After that was math lesson. I was updating my P.D and not listening to Mr Rahmat as i don't understand what he teaching. So i asked cindy to explain to me. Thanks gal. ((: When he gave us questions to do, i fell asleep after doing 1 question. Really fell asleep ! When he left the class, i don't even know lah. LOL. Rah came and woke me up by banging on the table. LOL. Slacked for the last period as i finished my 2nd draft. Walked to the bus stop with emerlyn. Lol! Mrs soh was standing at the place where we are not allowed to cross but to use the overhead bridge. Hahah. Emerlyn got to walked to another side which can just cross the road like that.

Reached home and sit down here. Yay ! I managed to get my songs already ! Wooohooo~ Got to bathe then read f&n notes and highlight for tomorrow and complete my literature hw ! x((

SOO ON FRIDAYYYYY~~

. ' 12:04 AM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Yay ! O LVL MT COMPLETELY OVER ! Now waiting for results to come out in august. Tralalaa~ I pray that Lord you will give me an A ! x))

WOOHOOO~ Revival round shawn and huixian get in ! YAYYNESS! CONGRATS TO THEM ! x))
Had Cellgroup today. Not bad. Learn more about the Holy Spirit. Cried a bit during worshipping. I hope nobody notice bahs. Before that we played saboteur. Kena sabo by Melmummy lah ! Esther super funny lah. LOL. Next time play again! Hehhh. No wonder that time Huimin dearie they all at settlers play until like crazy little kids. Hahha. Traalallala~

Goodnight kids. Goodnight God. Goodnight Jesus. Goodnight Holy Spirit. ((:

.Sunday, July 15, 2007 ' 10:07 AM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Later having math tuition at 3.30pm... Sigh. Cant go service today. I'm kinda sad )):
At night going to jacky cheung concert with mummy. We sitting different row ! So will be independent down dere. LOL.
My mum siao one. She went on friday night. Tonight go again. To me, waste of money nia ! I want go watch s.h.e concert she don't allow. now she go watch 2nd time. SIANNNN.

.Saturday, July 14, 2007 ' 10:35 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Woohooo~~
2nd movie with xjun jiejie.
4th movie with melmummy !
2nd movie with nigeldaddy ! WHEEEE~

HP was nice. Starting quite boring though. But overall its nice ((: Had dinner at food court at suntec then waited for mummy to come to take some stuff at millenia walk. ((:

.Thursday, July 12, 2007 ' 12:06 AM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

These few days still okay. Average bahs.
Today F&N Practical for CWB. Quite okay lor. Missed a large bit of physics stars i guess. But after that went back to class to do physics worksheet. Actually radioactivity is very simple(thats what ms tan said). But somehow i don't really understand. I know what is half life. But if you let me do some questions for example, questions from ms tan's worksheet, i really cant do. I don't know why lahs. Ohwells. Must listen in class more than sleeping !!!

I pray that Lord, bless me a good day tomorrow.
I pray that Lord, bless me to find people for saturday's evening movie. (hope you five can make it man ! )
I pray that Lord, I'm able to finish my revision without any distractions before my prelims.
Lord, i pray that you will bless all of us, my schoolmates, classmates, all sec4s no matter in brd or not, those who are taking O's and A's and major exams, my spiritual family + tribe, my earthly family and all my friends. I pray that you will bless us with your strength and wisdom to do your work. I pray that you will give us your peace, joy and love.
Lord Father I thank you for everything you had done. Thankyou for your undying love for us. Thankyou for dying on the cross for our sins. Thankyou for your faithfulness.
I LOVE YOU LORD DADDY ! MUACKKKS.

.Sunday, July 08, 2007 ' 8:12 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

My day ended in a not very nice mood. i am not happy now. feeling moody and unhappy. I've been holding on my tears since i left church just now. Haiz Haiz Haiz. How i wish my melmummy or min dearie or cousin xjun jiejie here jiu hao le....

After today, i don't know whether i am able to go church for service as often as the last month a not. How i wish i'm able and allow to go to church for service. I don't know why i'm not allowed to go. It's not a crime to believe religious stuff right. I have my rights to it right, no matter what age i am. I really don't understand. Everyday have school plus saturday's tuition.. I really feel stressed and unhappy. The only day and only time when i'm really really happy, is when i'm in church for service, listening to God's word and be with my spiritual family ! I always feel upset when i'm not able to go.. At home, i don't even talk to my parents about any stuff as i don't like to tell them my stuff as you know, they wunt understnd what you going through even if u tell them, as they will only tell u about their generation stuff about teenage years. So basically, at home i have more miserables than happiness as i need to deal with my irritating sister most of the time. My mum sometimes will like so petty and give that don't-like-it face towards me in whatever i've done that she doesn't like it but i like. I will cry whenever i ask my mum for permission or just telling her, her response is always a straight NO. I'm really upset about it. I've been praying to God about it.. But it seems not working. I know it takes time. I know that God is faithful and he will make it come through as He really have been answering most of my prayers. Nevermind, shall just pray more and have Faith it God !! Right lyn ?? (("

I feel so stressed. Although you see the outside me like nothing, inside me i really feel so tired and stressed. But sometimes i know i cannot control my emotions and my face show it. To those who always face me like my classmates and etc, i'm sorry about it. If you see me like i'm a bit of emotional kind and my face a bit not friendly and stuff, pardon me for that yeah. I know i have a bad temper.. Thanks to those who had tasted my attitude.. I'm really sorry about it. I pray that Lord, you will keep my temper in control yeah, as i'm a very easily lose temper person. I must always tell myself to REN !!!

Nowadays i like to pen down my emotions on my blog. Although i know that a lot of people will be reading it, including some of the school teachers i guess. I know my TUTION TEACHER reads my blog !!! Silent reader. Muahhahahahs.

I'm missing my darling melmummy now.. and cousin xjun jiejie and min ah-ma dearie. ((: These three people are my closest darlings in church. Maybe xjun jiejie is third in rank lah. Melmummy the first. Hahhahahas. No matter what rank is it, I LOVE THEM ALL THREE ! IN FACT I LOVE THE WHOLE TRIBE! They are nice people. ((:

There's school tomorrow. How i wish it is a holiday... )): I don't really like school nowadays. Like wasting my time away.. Tralalallala~ I WANNA GO JOGGING !!! plus I WANNA GO BACK TO CHURCH ASAP !!!

.Friday, July 06, 2007 ' 11:27 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Was reading Emerlyn's blog and suddenly i felt a bit of emotional inside me. Suddenly i felt that i'm very far from God. I felt kinda sad, feel like crying. But i won't as my mum and grandmother are at home. They will start asking a lot of questions if they see me crying.

I find myself these few days very slacky. Almost every day will doze off in class, which i don't know why i could not control it. No matter how early i went to bed, the next day i will still be dozing off during lessons. Starting to wonder, how come i've been so tired in school nowadays.

Have not been doing QT regularly.. Hopefully i will discipline myself to do it regularly. I MUST tell myself everyday to read the Bible for the Word of God !! I MUST I MUST ! Cannot be lazy!!! I don't want to read the Bible only when i'm in church for service on sundays. Lord Lord, i pray that you will take away my laziness!!! (((:

Prelims and O level exams are coming. Day by day, week by week. The day of it is nearer and nearer. I don't know how well or badly i will score for it. Only my Lord will know. I will just do my best, trust and hands everything onto His Hands. Right now, my laziness really have to go. I want to do my best and Glorify God with my results no matter how good or bad it is. Try my best and put in all my effort and yepp, thats it ! So Lord i pray that You will give me Your Strength and Wisdom. ((:

Have not been talking much to my dearest melmummy. Dint see her online and i know she's busy. Nevermind, we're still meet on sunday for service and monday for cell to celebrate Tee's birthday i guess. ((: I LOVE MY MELMUMMY LOADS !!!! x)) I missed Audris jiejie too. Don't know how she is doing now. Kind of worrying for her. But PTL ! My Faithful God had given her a space in the foreign university when the local universities rejected her. 3 cheers to my darling Audris ! Hope she can adapt to the environment at the uni. ((: I missed a lot of people too ! People like huimin dearie, xjun jiejie, aunt liqin and etc... Mostly church people as i only can see them once a week. If not, don't know a month or two then see them once. But i'm glad that i'm going to service almost every week already but still, i only can say that i'm going out to study till evening to my parents and grandmother. I really don't like that! Lord, i pray that you will soften my parents hearts and i pray that they will come to know you. ((:

I missed my precious darlings too ! People like YINGHAN, charmain dearest, ziyan jie, hilda, janice, joan... Nora baobeix.. Yanying precious.. etc etc etc. There are more to go, more till i won't list them here cause the list is really really long. ((: Suddenly i missed so many people. How i wish i am still a little primary school gal. I love my primary school education more than my secondary school education. <3>

Emerlyn: Thanks for your advice today. Actually before you called out my name, inside me i'm a bit like crying for no reason. Thanks gal ! After your advice i'm better ((:

XJUN !!!!! I WANNA GO JOGGING AGAIN !!!!! WHEN ARE YOU ABLE TO MAKE IT AGAIN ??? ((((: <3

.Thursday, July 05, 2007 ' 5:56 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Made sponge cake today. yummy yummy ! (((:
Slept during chinese class today. Really fell asleep for like dunno how long till period is over. Tee was the one who woke me up. Heh. ((:
School was boring the few days back lahs. Sian Sian SIAN.

Tralallalalalala~

.Monday, July 02, 2007 ' 10:55 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Sigh. I don't know why today everyone was so different. I really don't know what to do. Oh well.
Had math tuition in the morning today. After that went to melmummy's house. Played a round of Gliza then sharing for an hour or so. Started studying around 3 or 3+. Teeli and stephanie went off at 4.20pm as stephanie had physics tuition at 5pm and teeli at 6.30pm. I left at 5.30pm. I'm sorry to the class gals. Sorry i'm not able to make it for today. Next time yeah. (:

Tomorrow there's school !!! Tralalalal~

Went jogging in the so called evening with xjun jiejie and liyun jiejie at ecp yesterday. Jog halfway, i somehow stomach not feeling well. liyun and xiaojun jiejie both jog all the way till bedok jetty. Compared to them, i'm really super super lousy when xjun jiejie told me that she had not been jogging for years ?! i walked all the way from the hawker to bedok jetty myself together with my mp3. I'm so glad i brought it with me and not leave it in the locker. But my handphone was in the locker !

In the end, when i checked, 21 missed calls and 1 sms from my mum. She was worried lah, as i was not home by 9pm. I only end my jog at 9pm ! Hahah. Started at 7.25pm. Cuz we walked all the way back from bedok jetty to the locker place so we took quite some time. One conclusion on that: Run more so i get back my stamina !!! Hopefully my stomach would not have symptoms of unconfortable again.

After that, while we were walking back to marine terrace coffee shop near liyun jiejie's house to have our dinner, my mood changed. I become kind of unhappy and whatever they both ask me, i only shake my head. Intend to eat my late dinner at home but xjun jiejie "forced" me to drink a can of soya bean and they both gave me some of their mee as xjun jiejie know that i'm hungry and i'm starving myself. Thanks gals. Love you both! x)) I have no mood to talk at that time. I'm really sorry gals. Make you both kinda pissed off i guess. Thanks for your concern too! ((:

Shall go jogging again. This time must be a slower speed than yesterday !!!